i really wanna watch "seriously hossan". haha he's such a funny man. anyone wanna come? :D  it's good to be reflective.  it's very irritating to note that some people out there just do not want to cooperate. so you did not get the post you want, doesnt mean that you dont put in your best to make the camp a success. doesnt mean that you can go around insulting people. and not meeting datelines. i'd have sent you to exile in siberia if i could really. you dont know how hard the job is, and all you are in charge of is a tiny section of the camp, make so much noise already. ok fine so you arent happy that i got it and you didnt (sorry being a bitch here), but hello.. please come to terms with it la, what can you do now except to whine about it and trying to slam me every now and then you can, why not stop wasting the energy on such useless stuff and put your best to rush out your proposal instead so that i can compile and send to the 1001 people up there that i gotta send to. grr. i just dont know how to work with these kindda people man. i must say the work environment in tj is very very different from the one in crescent. the people here are like so no eq. and bossy. and just trying to do things to get some shit credit for themselves. and i thought the vice was supposed to support the chair. and not secretly go find the teacher and not let the chair know, and in the end repeating the info and getting scolded. damn you. decided to pon school today to complete up my 2 history essays (which i havent started), chi compre, maths tutorials and pack my room. but however, look what i'm doing now. :P  it's fun keeping my identity a secret over at ___'s. :D  2 days ago, when i was brushing my teeth and getting ready to sleep, suddenly a phone call came and told me i am project coordinator for june camp. wah i swear my toothbrush like dropped on the floor. so super shocking cuz i didnt expect it, and am not ready for it. die la die. it's the top post for the entire june camp and i'd be leading another 11 people in the june camp committee. according to last year's jcc, they got like auto posted up to the board of directors, smth like that. now another question is, should i even run for the board of directors? just looking at today's meeting, i didnt even seem like the one in charge man. and there's 1 or 2 out there who wanted the post damn badly and didn't get, and i heard from _______ tt they are intending to sabotage the camp and screw me up or smth? ):  never ever in my wildest dream did i even think i would meet GUIGUI at citylink today! in case you are reading this, I MISS YOU HEAPLOADS GUIGUI ): how come you suddenly become so tan!!! ): gosh, we got loads of bitching and catching up to do!!! SIGH SIGH WHEN WILL I EVER SEE YOU AGAIN MY DEAR! ): if you don't say, there's no point asking anymore. i feel so sick trying to keep in touch with everyone. and planning everything. which won't work out in the end anyway. i was hopeful of i&e comm outing, but i guess not anymore. ): i'm just so sick and tired of trying to keep in touch with everyone, but in the end, who's the one coming to me? it's just a lonely lonely life. 1. go check out hossan leong's version of "we didn't start the fire" on singapore history. cool stuff. haha i laugh until i died. other wise, "we didn't start the fire" is a good song to summarise the cold war. haha. come to think of it, the history notes piling up on my table's making me puke. hello bitch, thanks for ruining my life. i guess that's what you love to see so yea. i dont get it when you said you didn't care, you didn't bother bout me, i have totally nothing to do with you. yeah true on the 3rd part. but if that's the case, why then when you need help or someone to talk to, im the one you look for? when you needed someone to talk to in the middle of the night i was there to talk to you. and now that im not alright, it's my fault. fine. you don't give a damn about my life? neither do i. (okay this sounds so immature but true what) if you were such a great friend, you would have noticed that something was amiss, when i didn't turn up, didn't pick up the calls, didn't reply your messages so instantly unlike before. but no you didnt, all you did was to blame me. for getting a break out of everything, and in the end getting angry that i wasn't there. think. were you here when i needed you? just by seeing the replies of your messages, so blunt and so piercing, i just didn't feel like reply them anymore. there wasn't the usual care. the usual love. so maybe i was just a tool. someone you could use when no one was there for you. when everyone else was busy. yes, i was hurt. but i got over it. and hurt becomes numb. so many times it happened, so many times i've gotten over it. it just means nothing anymore. all just a facade. i really don't see why i should just keep giving in, and end up apologising everytime. just because everyone gives in to you, do i have to do it to? i'm getting so sick of your selfishness and self-centeredness and stubbornness. i don't see why i should give a damn about you anymore. but yet, i don't want this friendship to end this way. because, the time spent listening to you talk, treating you to ice cream, bitching on the phone for the past 2 years + actually because somewhat of my life. i don't know what i should do. i think i just need a break. from you. and the world? i don't know. sometimes i wonder why don't i retaliate and say smth to hurt you. i guess the feeling's just so bad, i dont wanna put you thru the same. i don't know why but i've been blogging a lot more than usual. maybe it's because i've added blogger to my bookmarks bar. hehe. amazing escapade to m'sia last night. reached home only at like 12+am omg. haha the stupid woodlands causeway was jam, so we had to use the 2nd link instead. omg. it was soooo freakin far away from the place tt we wanted to go, like 20+km, and since it was like the first time we used 2nd link to get there, got lost like 1000 times. wah, had to u-turn and all, i was so freaked out. and the roads had no street lamps! haha although i was able to see so many stars in the sky (very very lucky, cuz s'pore stars are like pathatic), i was so scared like anytime someone would open the car door and snatch me away or smth. haha keep asking my dad to lock the car doors, was so super funny. we ended up having dinner at my favourite m'sian restaurant at 9.30 and we were the only ones left. HAHA it was hilarious having all the waitresses staring at you eat. but oh wells, i loved the dinner so much. yay!